Break
It's pretty heated, maybe a good time to take a break for a while. I've advised Maratrean of the same thing. Come back and edit some articles or whatever. I appreciate you desysopping yourself... I guess we all let things get out of hand sometimes. I have too, certainly!
I know, I know... believe me! But I guess you already realized that this wasn't the way to handle it. And of course we don't ban people just like that. Don't worry, it'll work out in the end. Just gotta keep your head on straight and hold the line, and whatnot.