You are not only beautiful, but very cute too! :-) Here is something a friend of mine got for me recently when I was feeling a bit low: Inner Peace Cards Disclaimer: it probably comes under the classification of new age "woo" - but this is a deck of "affirmation" cards with positive daily thoughts. I only had to throw out about 4 from the 60 or so that I didn't agree with, and they might brighten your mood on a temporary basis. Love ya! :-)
Or the Zen cards might be better for you - I don't have these though, so can't say. and Hi Dumpling! :-D
Sounds a bit like The Little Book of Calm. You can ingest that for some strange consequences.