Thread:User talk:Gooniepunk2010/What happened?/reply (2)

The fact is that I am freaked out by this whole thing. In truth, I am not even sure how to put my feelings on this situation in to words. Mei kinda almost hit near where I felt yesterday when she said, "I don't hate you. I'm not sure who you are, but I wasn't sure about that to start with. I've looked at recentchanges, and read all the comments from this recent mini-HCM, and I can't really see what this changes. I still like you, in a sort of cautious way. I'm still your friend, but I'm not going to be lending you my priceless ming vase anytime soon. :p". But, even Mei cannot describe how I feel. I'm actually, factually at a loss for how to describe how I feel. I do not plan on blocking or binning you, or I would've done so already. But my problem is that I cannot figure out exactly what my position is. On one hand, I'd like to say, "Yes, I trust you and all is forgiven." On the other hand, I think what went down yesterday is a breach of my highly coveted belief in assuming good faith unless proven otherwise. So, with that in mind, where do you and I go from here? I don't know. I really don't know, and it is hard to tell. And thus why I made a pledge to myself today to avoid the issue until I can figure things out.