Conservapedia:Parthian shot/Sievert 81 (Nature's Mockery)

My radicalization started young, as early as 2018, but I was just a "mainstream" conservative, with pro-life as my most extreme belief. At the start of the COVID pandemic, when I was 15/16, my dad (divorced from my mom) began to isolate me from her, using the potential for a driver's license as bait. I fell for it, and he successfully took me away and began radicalizing me into the alt-right. From Sept 2020 to Jan 2021, I was a full-on neo-Nazi. I also began to create weird conspiracy theories surrounding prions, COVID causing AIDS, and radiation, leading to my subsequent where I thought the administrators on Wikipedia were trying to get me SWATed, to cover up the "truth about Alzheimer's disease", censor conservative voices, and cover up Trump's win of the 2020 election. (The funny part is, the original block on the Sievert 81 account was in fact, false.) This episode followed a 7-day mental hospital stay in Oct 2020. I was $400 and a car ride away from being at the Capitol storming. I could have ended up in prison because of this crap. I detached from my dad after he told me I was "acting like a minority, oppressing a white man" for not wanting to drive after being assaulted at work. My subsequent, and by August 2021 or so, I was a social democrat, and now, I hold far-left, libertarian socialist views, and have accepted my identity as non-binary. I wish I could say I'm in a better space now, but I'm nowhere near.

The vast majority of my pages and edits contain weird conspiratorial pseudoscience, typical of my psychotic break. I also remember plagiarizing a lot of articles, as well as vandalism on alts. I also had a few parodist accounts I made after the fact, most still unblocked, parody edits persisting. My existence on Conservapedia actively made it worse, and I doubt the fascist admins will ever find and remove all the damage. DavidB4 is too dumb to remove the Daily Stormer links from his userpage, and some of the Supreme Court Justice articles still have their address on them (I did not do either of these, but noticed them a while back). Today, all Conservapedia seems to do is echo Russian propaganda. It's dead, and I was, however inadvertently, one of the killers.